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10
Nov
09

Crazy Leg, Fugly Random Tuesday Thoughts

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Have you ever been sitting in traffic and had your foot on the brake so long that suddenly you are afraid you aren’t pushing hard enough?  And that at any minute your foot might fall asleep and you will crash into the car in front of you?  And all the sudden your leg starts to shake and you start to think “Oh my god I am going to cream the car in front of me and we aren’t even moving!” No?  Oh, ok, maybe it’s just me.

You know how some days you look in the mirror and you think “eh Christ, today I look like shit! Gah!” and then the rest of the day you feel like it’s totally your ‘Ugly’ Day?  Yeah, well I have been doing that every day for the last like 2 years.  I am thinking of removing the mirrors from my house.

That would be most rough on Monkey though, because that boy LOVES to look at himself.  He even flirts with himself.  It’s so hilarious.  And it’s not just mirrors, it’s ANY reflection.  He sees himself in the TV and he will run by staring at himself laughing.  And run back again.  Over and over.  He is nuts.

I had a dream Friday night that I was having an ultrasound performed and I said to the tech, “Hey! There are two babies!” and she said “oh well look at that! There sure is! Looks like twins!”

And that’s all I can remember.  That and that when I was looking at the ultrasound monitor, the babies looked like a drawing and not like a sonograph picture.  Very weird.

But I can’t get it out of my head.  Are twins in our future?   I am trying not to get my hopes up.  But we are going to try again, with our doctors go ahead, on my next cycle.  Which should be right about Christmas day if I am calculating right.  Actually, I would start injections Christmas eve.  IF of course my body does what it is supposed to do.  With the help of all the drugs they are giving me of course. *grin*

I don’t want to get my hopes up but my gut says that I will get pregnant.  That of course leads into the next question… will I stay pregnant this time.  PCOS is such a beast.  GRRR *Pout*.

Hubby was gone all weekend on a fishing trip and I took the opportunity to start redoing our house.  Since it appears that we are going to be here for a while and not heading home to Colorado like I had hoped, I have decided to make some changes around here.  For starters, I want to redo our living room.  Our furniture is old and it is starting to feel like you are sitting on marble, not on a soft squishy couch.  I am going to miss it but… not that much.  🙂

I am also going to start redecorating other parts of the house.  Like Monkey’s room and the master bedroom.  I can’t paint because we rent, but I am going to get some paint out and touch up some of the nicks and marks that we have put on the walls.  And by *we* I mean *the boys*!

This weekend I started reorganizing all over the house.  I am Queen of the Label Maker.  All Hail Label Maker.  Amen.

So I labeled the kitchen cupboards and some of my office stuff so far.

I also decided that I had enough of those damn ants.  So, I actually sprayed some bug spray. *gasp*  I know, I know.  They may move elsewhere, but I am going to take my chances!!  Those little nasty shits have spent enough time in my house!  I am fed UP!  And so far it seems to have worked.

I am seriously considering calling the Bug Killer Owner Guy and chewing him out.  I paid him $70 and all I got were bugs!  I went to Walmart and spent $3.95 and my ant problem is solved.  Ponder that!

For some reason I am addicted to 80’s music the last week or so.  I can’t get enough.  And as luck would have it, we have an 80’s radio station here.  Awesome!  And even MORE lucky is the fact that Monkey LOVES it!!  He dances all over the room.  It’s so cute!!  I am trying to get a video of him.

It’s weird though, because for a Photographers kid, he is oddly camera shy.  *shrug*

Well, I am ALLLLLL about the lame blogs lately, aren’t I?

 

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21
Sep
09

In the land of Monkey’s Mama part deux

Being a stay at home Mom is a privilege.  One that I love the opportunity of having.  It is my favorite job and I wouldn’t give it up for anything in the world.  But it is still a JOB.  Anyone who doesn’t agree with me can meet me at the flagpole after school!!

There are days when I feel like my job duties are monotonous and draining.  And then I have the dreaded “I don’t wanna” feeling.  All Mom’s do, right?

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Well it has been raining non-stop for like 1290387412398412390 days and as I have expressed before, I *NEED* sunshine for my sanity.  When the weather gets like this I tend to start falling off in the chore department.  Laundry, house cleaning and even grocery shopping.

When I was single, I loved how on those days when I didn’t feel like grocery shopping, I could hop into my car, in my pajamas at whatever time I felt the urge, take a measly 3 bucks and get a fairly yummy dinner from my nearest fast food dump restaurant.  Then even better, no cooking and no dishes!!  Not really beneficial for my waistline but hey, what’s my waistline ever REALLY done for me?

Last week, I had to really start getting creative when it came to meals and snacks.  I have the basics to keep us going.  But I am usually so OCD that I have a list on the fridge of the meals I am going to make for the week.  Seriously.  It says on the top in bold script Meals by Mommy. 🙂

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That is how I *usually* roll.  But then the rain hits me and all I care about is laying around, reading books to Jimmy, pretending my jammies are every day clothes, and letting the minutes slowly tick by during the day.

Then every day I glance at the clock around five o’clock and go “OH SHIT! What am I going to make for dinner?!?!”  And then proceed to run around the kitchen like a nut trying to find something suitable to feed us all.  The benefit to this is that I have created some really great meals with this tactic.  Meals that Hubby has asked me to repeat.

I am starting to ramble?  Oh.  Sorry.  Here is my actual point.  YES I did have one.

All of this made me start thinking of the little things that I miss.  None of which are missed enough to give up this rockin’ Mommy job of course, but they are things that I miss.  So I am going to share some of them with you.

I miss:

  • Sleeping in (or the possibility of EVER sleeping in again)
  • Pooping alone (they should tell kids in high school about this one! That would help eliminate a LOT of teen pregnancy, don’t you think? Lol)  Although when you have the toddler and both dogs in there, you can pretend it’s a party.  How fun, right? *eyeroll*
  • Playing loud music in the car and SINGING out loud!  (and Monkey loves my singing! *sigh*)
  • Sex anywhere in the house we want, whenever we want.  (I suppose there are always naps! LOL)
  • Talking on the phone (which is the exact point in my sons head that he feels he needs to be the absolute LOUDEST he can possibly be… EVER!)
  • Sunday lazy movies days spent all day on the couch in our jammies  (now if we try to watch any movie that doesn’t have Baby PainInTheAssCauseItsAllWeEverGetToWatch Einstein on the cover, Monkey screams and hits the TV, which makes movie watching less than pleasurable)
  • Reading a book (I never thought I would have to give this up *sigh*)
  • Going out to see a movie (in a THEATER!) anytime I want.
  • Basically just having any privacy

I would love for everyone to share something they miss after becoming a Mommy.  And if you are not a Mommy, what is something you miss from… ummm… drawing a blank here… ummm…. You decide.  Kay?

Oh and thank BOB for the sun finally coming out this weekend!!  I feel much better!!  (Aside from the first trimester exhaustion, of course.)

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Got the grocery shopping done.  Got the house cleaned… err… well sort of.  Things are sort of getting back to normal around these parts.  Mommy’s gloom is clearing. 🙂

Now today we have the ultrasound at 10:15 to check on the pregnancy.  That in and of itself is going to give me a heart attack.  Pray for me.  Please!  🙂

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about moi…

Hi, my name is Cass. I am married to an amazing man who loves me unconditionally. I’m a stay at home mom to a rockin’ 2 year old boy who I call Monkey. I have an 12 year old step-daughter who lives in another state. We miss her daily. We also have two fur babies, Daisy and Jazz, who keep us on our toes. They are awesome!

I am a complete goofball, a photographer and a constant out loud thinker. I am a grammar challenged, vulgar, cursing, sex obsessed Big Mama fumbling through life. Among other things, I battle PCOS causing infertility, Bi Polar, Anxiety and OCD.

Currently I am riding the fertility roller coaster in an attempt to make Monkey #2. This blog is about a little of everything. I hope you enjoy. Read at your own risk!

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