Posts Tagged ‘miscarriage

02
Oct
09

Yay! It’s Friday Dear So and So!!!

Dear So and So...

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Dear Dr W,

You are my new doctor.  Oh my effing god you ROCK!  You are so awesome and I am so glad I found you.

Even though I am petrified about having the D&C on Monday, I couldn’t ask for a more competent doctor.  And I trust your judgment that we cannot wait any longer.

The glowing review from Dr G really helped but when I learned that you used to partner with the doctor the delivered my son, now THAT makes me heart you.  Totally.

I am so glad I found you and when you said that you couldn’t wait to you deliver my next child, I knew.  I really, really knew.

You rock,

Cass

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Dear Hubby,

I am so happy that you are back.  I am officially swooning.  I fall in love with you all over again every day.  It’s wonderful.  I am so lucky.  (And so are you *grin*)

Loving you always,

Wife

PS… You, me, wine, candlelight, Saturday night, be there *wink*

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Dear Monkey,

I love how even though I didn’t have to tell you how much Mommy was going through you just knew.  You have been my little rock this week.  Your extra hugs and kisses when I don’t even expect them are AMAZING.  I am so blessed to have such a perfect tiny man in my life.

Love you baby,

Mommy

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Dear Nanny,

Monkey loves you.  And this in turn makes Hubby and I love you.  However, it has begun to puzzle me how you oddly smell of Indian food and dog urine lately.  At first, I thought maybe it was me.  However, now I have had to change Monkey’s clothes and Febreeze the entire house after your departure the last two times you were here.

We will continue to love you, but do tell… what’s the deal?  Anything I can do?

Puzzled,

Cass

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Dear Daisy,

Thank you for jumping up to greet Mommy when she came home from the doctor today.  I love how much you love me.  However, the HUGE HOLE you tore in my new shirt… doesn’t love you.

Now hold still so I can cut your dang nails!!!

Also, can you tell me why EVERYONE in this house has fingernail issues, including yourself??

Frustrated,

Mom

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Dear Steelers,

Please feel free to kick some Chargers tail this weekend.

Yay!! 🙂

Proudly sporting my black and gold,

Cass

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Dear Mother Nature,

Awwwww, thank you SOOOOO much for finally reading my letters, emails and texts, however, I suspect the sky writing plane with the sign “BRING COOLER WEATHER… PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE!!!!” may have done the trick.  81 degrees today?  You ROCK!

Thank you, thank you, thank you,

Cass

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Dear Readers,

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Have a fantastic weekend!!!

Smootchies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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01
Oct
09

Umm… That’s not your belly button…

Happy Thursday!  Which means TOMORROW awesome peeps is FRIDAY!!  Wootwoot! 🙂

Ok so technically, Mommy’s don’t get weekends, but I like to dream, nnkay?

LOL

So my sour puss whiny self has officially left the building.  I know, try to contain your sighs of relief.

And I have decided to postpone the D&C and let nature take a shot at this first.  If nothing works in a week or so, then D&C it is.

BUT!  Until then… I PROMISE, no more sappy, crabby, the world sucks comments.  Kay?

I have a killer support system.  Dude seriously, how lucky am I?  All of my friends and family and internet friends out there are so awesome!!

I know that this pregnancy didn’t work, and trust me when I say that I am pissed about it, but I am to the point now where I know there isn’t anything I can do about it except let it happen and move on to the next one.

Even with this, we are undeterred from our goal.  Sure it sucks (way!) but it is what it is.  So we move on.

So *I* finally finished a BOOK!  I have been having some sort of readers block (haha) for a few months now.  I used to read book after book after book.  Somehow, in the last few months, I hit a wall.  So I finally finished reading Submissive Confessions by CK George.  AWWW AWW AWWESOME book!  I TOTALLY recommend checking it out.  Go there, click the link.  You KNOW you want to.  😀

And now I am finally getting back to Lost and Found by Jacqueline Sheehan which I am totally diggin so far.  It’s a calm easy read after the very powerful emotions of the last book.

I know I am SOOOOOO behind on blogs but I have been going thru some stuff. 🙂 So I promise… no… I *VOW* to get back to them very soon and again read each and every one of your blogs.

Promise.  Cross my heart.  Hope to… why the hell did we ever think that was a good saying as kids??

Anyhoo… I totally promise, k?  Pinky swear! 🙂

So on a totally funny note, I will leave you with this…

Last night we (Monkey and I) were on webcam with my Gram and my Dad.  Monkey was laughing and kissing them on the monitor and doing all the cutie patootie stuff that he always does.

And then, as mothers typically do, I wanted to show them some of the new tricks… err things he has learned.  *teehee*  So I say, “Monkey, where are your hands?” and he waves his hands in front of him and laughs, and I say “Good job Monkey, where is your belly button?” and expect him to lift his shirt and point to his belly button as he usually does.  However, in a curious turn of events he instead grabs his mini man parts like he is Michael Jackson or Andrew Dice Clay!  They start LAUGHING, and I am laughing and it’s all good times had by all.

Well that’s all for me today.  Poor hubby has been working a gazillion hours this week so I need to sneak in a shower while Monkey naps or I can say adios to getting clean today.

Have a fantastic day all.

MUCH LOVE for all the amazing comments, emails and messages you have all been sending.  You have no idea how helpful you have all been.  I owe you.  Big time.

Hugs!!

ps… and Monkey is awake.  So much for *regular bathing*

*eyeroll*

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28
Sep
09

The Dreaded Post…

The ultrasound Friday with Dr G didn’t go well.  Not only did he not find a heartbeat but the pregnancy stopped growing.  It not only stopped growing, but actually started shrinking.  Which Dr G says is normal when the pregnancy fails.

Last Monday, the crown to rump measurement was 1.8 cm, and Friday it was only 2 mm!

Dr G has referred me to a new doctor, so that I don’t have to see Dr M anymore.  However when I called the new doctor, he is out of town until next week.  So I have to go to Dallas to have the D&C done on  Friday.  Dallas is a 3 hour drive.  ONE WAY.  Should be a fun day.  I am going to request a sleeping pill so that I can sleep in the car on the way back.

We are going to try again, and life is going to go on.  This isn’t the first time.  Not even close.  But right now, I just need a bit of time to process.  To grieve.  To be angry.  To mourn. To curse the world and all of the pregnant “oops I am pregnant” women out there who have no idea how freaking lucky they are.  Bitter much?




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about moi…

Hi, my name is Cass. I am married to an amazing man who loves me unconditionally. I’m a stay at home mom to a rockin’ 2 year old boy who I call Monkey. I have an 12 year old step-daughter who lives in another state. We miss her daily. We also have two fur babies, Daisy and Jazz, who keep us on our toes. They are awesome!

I am a complete goofball, a photographer and a constant out loud thinker. I am a grammar challenged, vulgar, cursing, sex obsessed Big Mama fumbling through life. Among other things, I battle PCOS causing infertility, Bi Polar, Anxiety and OCD.

Currently I am riding the fertility roller coaster in an attempt to make Monkey #2. This blog is about a little of everything. I hope you enjoy. Read at your own risk!

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