It’s Baby Making Time!

Last night I took my first pill in our next attempt at expanding our family.  It was thrilling and scary at the same time.  While we are scared, we dive head first into this new process of baby makin’ with our fingers and toes crossed.

We have been riding this fertility roller coaster for going on 7 years now.  Taking basal temperatures, CM testing (don’t ask, you DON’T want to know), millions of tests from blood to surgery, logging cycle days and even sex days!  (don’t even get me started on all of the medications… I feel like I am running a pharmacy out of my medicine cabinet!) My fertility medical file alone is about 3 inches thick!  I know this because every time I switch doctors, which has happened SEVERAL times.  I have to take my 3 inch thick file of tests and doctor notes to my new doctor, who then has to try and gather all of the information.  I also feel guilty handing that file over. *shrug*

Since we finally had our successful pregnancy after 5 years and had our beautiful baby boy, we thought baby #2 would be the same process that we had finally found successful.  But after a year of trying that route with no luck, we knew something was up.  After another round of tests (yippie!) and ANOTHER new doctor, we finally had an answer.  My PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) had gotten worse.  A lot worse.  So they recommended IVF but I am mostly against that because I feel like it is the LAST resort.  And I don’t think we are there yet.  I wanted more options first.  They presented us with only one other option.

After a lot of discussion with our Specialist, we knew we needed to think on it.  You may remember my birthday blog? Ok so maybe I wasn’t the one who needed to do the thinking.  But after a lot of discussion, we finally decided to begin injections to cause me to ovulate and then an IUI.  An IUI is a process that is clinical and to the point.  The doctor actually takes Chucks, umm… swimmers… and injects them directly into my uterus.  Fun eh?  How’s that for spur of the moment? haha

To be honest, I am scared shitless.  I really hope that it works, but I can’t help but think about our chances for multiples.  I don’t think my body will do anything that it can’t handle.  So I hold on to that faith and jump in with both feet.  I have very high hopes, though.

I am so glad that we waited few months because we needed the break we also needed to be more financially prepared.  It is going to be very costly.  I have so enjoyed not charting every day.  And not having to look at a calendar to check and see if I can have a glass of wine or a beer.  Not peeing on a stick every day has been a joy as well.  Just going to pee was becoming a chore.  So the last three months have been wonderful.

Don’t get me wrong, I would gladly do it all knowing the perfect bundle of joy that hopefully will be our reward.  And thus we begin this grueling journey, again.  Luckily I have a strong husband holding my hand as we go forward.  I just hope for the best.  The 5 years we went through to get my precious Jimmy was hard but I would do it over a gazillion times to have him.  So this should be well worth it.  🙂


20 Responses to “It’s Baby Making Time!”

  1. July 12, 2009 at 10:30 am

    Yay for you! I know it’s a lot of work and I hope it goes quick and easy!

  2. 3 Paula
    July 12, 2009 at 10:56 am

    Ya know, I had no idea you had so much trouble making the babies… I’ll keep you two in my thoughts lots and lots!

    Ben and I’ve been all sorts of talking about adding one more to our “herd” but we seem to be the fertile type (he came to me with four girls…sheesh!) and I’m almost scared to have them take the IUD out of me.

    It’s odd how things can be so different for people, isn’t it?

    …thinking about you.


    • 4 bigmamacass
      July 12, 2009 at 5:42 pm

      Awww, you are so sweet Paula!!! Yes, it is odd. But it all happens the way it is meant to, right? I think another girl…err, I mean kiddo (teehee) would be AWESOME for you two!! You are an amazing mother! Any child that has you for a mother has been given a gift 🙂 Just ask Ruthie!! 🙂

  3. 5 Amanda
    July 12, 2009 at 11:44 am

    Best of luck to you both!!! I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you!!!

  4. 7 Amanda Foster
    July 12, 2009 at 7:17 pm

    I’m holding your hand from here. All of my fingers and toes are crossed too. I’m proud of you. 🙂

    Love you!

  5. 9 Jen
    July 13, 2009 at 9:46 am

    I wish you guys the best!! Although we are just at the beginning of a similar process, I can’t imagine what you guys have already been through. I applaud you for being so diligent and persistant to get what you want for your family. Thank you for being so open and sharing your story.

    • 10 bigmamacass
      July 13, 2009 at 11:14 am

      Wait… what?? Are you and K going to try having a baby? Email me!!

      • 11 Jen
        July 14, 2009 at 3:38 pm

        Yep! I would love to talk to you about it sometime. I know that you have a lot of experience in this area! I’ll get an email to you shortly. Good luck to you! I’m wishing you the very best!

  6. July 13, 2009 at 6:05 pm

    Much luck and good wishes to you!

  7. July 13, 2009 at 7:18 pm

    I’m sure you’ll make it happen, you sound so focused!

    And, hey, look at the bright side, you get to have “sex days”!

  8. July 14, 2009 at 10:53 am

    God is going to give you what he knows you can handle. Nothing more, nothing less.

    I am always here if you need anything. ❤

  9. 19 Rebekah
    July 14, 2009 at 7:10 pm

    Good luck!

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Hi, my name is Cass. I am married to an amazing man who loves me unconditionally. I’m a stay at home mom to a rockin’ 2 year old boy who I call Monkey. I have an 12 year old step-daughter who lives in another state. We miss her daily. We also have two fur babies, Daisy and Jazz, who keep us on our toes. They are awesome!

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