This blog was originally posted on MySpace.
I am sooooooooo sorry … I have been having a very difficult time reading everyone’s blogs. In a nutshell… I hate my job, the girls there are mean to me; I made myself sick with a fever and major stomach issues (cause I hate my job) and thus my stomach and I are in a HUGE fight right now.. lets just say I don’t know if counseling will get us back together, but we agreed to try ; I have friends coming into town tomorrow and its going to be crazy around here; my sleep habits are totally screwed up because I dream NON stop from the time I get into bed until I get out of it and so I feel like I am not getting any sleep at all (any suggestions?) and they are totally bad and scary dreams; my computer is acting SUPER weird lately and I can’t figure out what the hell is wrong with it other than I suspect it wants to leave me; My internet access is provided to me by a super teeny tiny cable company (remember I live in a town of 416 people? well we have our own cable company) and it is having major issues because they are “trying to improve” our service; I am goddamn crabby!!! That’s just the tip of the iceberg!!
So please bear with me everyone, I will be coming in to check blogs every few minutes between running to the bathroom and trying to relax on the couch. I might even make an attempt at watching a movie.
I think I will quit my job but I feel like a total failure and I want to cry just thinking about what a pussy I am being. I just don’t know what to do. They are so mean to me there. I just don’t want to let anyone down or have anyone think that I am a fuck up because I can’t hack working a job at a tiny retail store for more than a week! See, I used to work regular jobs with regular hours without a problem. But I just don’t know if this shit is worth it for a measly 8 bucks an hour!
I’m so very depressed right now… i could kick myself for getting myself into this damned position! Someone just frigging smack me for being such an idiot!!
So please forgive me i will get to your blogs, all of them…. i promise! also forgive my HORRIBLE grammar and jumping all over in here, i’m sure the spelling speaks volumes and i am not even going to proof read this cause i don’t really want to :o(
Hope you are all having a MUCH better week than me and I miss you all!